tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-219885882011-08-03T13:23:16.186+10:00<b> Living with Borderline Personality Disorder </b><br><br><i>An insight in to my mind, my life and my lunchbox</i><br><br>Contains Adult Content Rated for mature audiences Including but not limited to..<br><br>Frequent Coarse Language<br>Sex scenes<BR>Adult Themes<br>Nudity<br>etc etc..Mark Clohesyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11570666220068379738noreply@blogger.comBlogger591100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21988588.post-91521735566337050582009-12-03T14:04:00.001+11:002009-12-03T14:05:21.919+11:00

I want to feel the cold steel slice through my flesh or maybe breaking bones is the way to go

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Man I had a bad day today, I was ready to punch someone while I was out shopping, not anyone in particular just the guy who didnt use his indicator, or the bitch that ran in to my wife with the trolley and didnt say sorry, she didnt even look up at me when I followed her and said with a slightly raised voice, "It would be nice if you apologised to my wife when you you hit her with a trolley".

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Its official, I am the worlds leading Fuck Up Master. Everything I touch turns to shit, electronics, cars, relationships.. It doesnt matter, if has anything to do with me then it is fucked up from the start. I am sure If I went to the city with me pension check I could get a gun and a bullet or two and In an istant nobody has to put up with my shit anymore. The world would be such a better place.

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Havent been doing much lately, I blew the motor in the RD it was good while it lasted. I managed to get my paws on an 81 XJ650 that I am working on. I would like to have it on the road for the stone run in Febuary but I dont think it will happen. I will see wha happens.Been feeling down the last few weeks, i cant put a finger on whats causing it, doesnt help i have missed meds :( need to do

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Well I haven't blogged in a while, been depressed on and off for a bit now and am finding it hard to really get motivated most days, I need to start blogging more and am going to try and do a post to my different blog's every day or so, lets hope this is the start of me being motivated.Trip our 3 legged cat came home last night after being away for 2 days, he was hobbling along on 2 legs, he may

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Well I turned 35 yesterday, I have a pretty drab life and realise I need to make some changes If I am going to get anywhere in life, I am upsetting Jo-anne by not going to church, I guess I just dont feel up to it both physically and mentally. I had 2 teeth pulled the other day and now have a third that is hurting me :(Lets make a list of the things I need to changeGive up the weedGoing back to

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When I was about 12 years old my stepfather brought a commodore 64 computer, the particular model was an SX64 as shown in the photo, it was one of the first "portable" computers.. I started to learn to program it in BASIC which was built in as the "operating system"I spent over two weeks copying the data for an animated sprite from a magazine in to my computer after school only to find out it

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Well it is about 430 and I have taken 2 antihistamine's and am going to try to drown sleep again and to top it all off as I cant sleep I am starting to feel depressed :( but I did a cool wallpaper, show you all later

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Its 4 am I have tried to sleep for the last hour or so to no avail, I have a bad head cold and I feel really bad, both physically and I also feel bad emotionally as I said I would go to church today but I really am feeling so sick and exhausted.I have just given up cigarettes about 4 weeks ago and when I gave up I got really sick with pneumonia (dictionary.com)It really scared me there, I was so

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Jo-anne and I took the boys to the ward Spring fair, there were games to have a go at and everyone how took part then used the won tickets to purchase fairy floss (cotton candy) popcorn, as well as donated items in a little auction, all donated by the members of the ward. It was a great day but the sun was taking its toll on Blossy, Brodie was having a bad "Aspi" day and I have a head cold, all

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I bought a late 1960's early 1970's Dartronic 415 Oscilliscope on ebay for $19.98 It is a hybrid containg both Valves (tubes) and very early metal can and glass transistors as well as point to point wiring with circuit boards. It's in a very sorry state as it has been sitting on the floor in a shed with no side panels on it and has been exposed to some moisture at some point in its life.I have

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Well it has been a while since I have posted to my blog, been real slack really, I am trying to give up smoking and am not really having much luck with it, my doctor said I cant use the anti smoking drug zyban as I have epilepsy, oh well Ill have to do it with patches then. I got a bit stressed out the other day and punched the cupboard door, I guess The stopping smoking is hitting me harder

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Brodie and Angus were baptised today, I was able to give a talk at the service on Baptism and the Gift of the Holy Ghost, I felt the Holy Ghost, I can testify that I know this is the true church as restored upon this earth, I know that Joseph Smith was a prophet of God and I know that I can be with my Heavenly Father.Diva missed you being here for the boys baptism but we know you were here in

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Over the last few weeks I have been going back to church, I cant remember If I have said in an earlier post that I was a Latter Day Saint www.lds.org or a Mormon as we are also known. Anyways through the wonderful testimony from a friend of mine Diva in th US of A and the way she lives her life she has helped me to become stronger in my faith and return to The restored Church on this earth. I

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My Girlfriend runs a website called sassy sigs n stuff where they make all pretty pictures that they attach to emails etc, I saw this and thought this would be great to marry the two together to make a personal statement, sure beats fuzzy dice and seat covers.

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The Australian Communications and Media Authority (ACMA) has registered the world's first legislative code of practice for internet service providers (ISPs), Dealing with unsolicited email commonly known as spam costs business and home net users millions of dollars a year and it seem's that as one email craze fades out another starts(Hmm I wonder if I could control my micro remote control car

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Apple is facing lawsuits over the ipod range including the Nano as it causes hearing loss or could cause hearing loss as they produce between 104db and 115db sound levels, see here for a comparison. They have released a patch that lets users set the maximum volume and it even allows parents to lock the volume with a PIN. This should stop the non hacker types, I give it less then a week before a

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I had a really restless sleep last night, I was having lots of minor seizures on and off all night and I felt like I had been hit by a truck, well my own fault for not taking my meds at the right times.

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I went in to Harvey Norman in Warragul today and was just looking around, I had thought of buying a new game for the Playstation 2 but ended up putting a deposit down on a new mobile/cell phone. The phone I m getting is called the XPhone and it is from the company O2. Not only is it a mobile phone but it is also a Smartphone running Windows Smartphone Edition 2003.So with this new phone that I

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I guess I am really the last person to be giving relationship advice to anyone, that said this isnt advice at all, when I was a teenager I was involved in helping out with kids with special needs, next to the highschool that i went to was a school targeted at these wonderful kids, while there I made friends with one of the parents of a student, her name was Hazel.Hazel was a lovely lady from

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Yesterday I took Bloss to buy her new car, her old Ford meteor had really reached its use by date as it was getting on in years and it also had had a pretty hard life from the kids, long miles and dirt roads. So last week we went in search of a new car, the requisites where pretty minimal. It had to be a 4 cylinder as fuel is only getting more pricey, it had to be younger then her old car and it

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I have always loved riding motor bikes, but with the balance problems that I have just walking I think that my days of crusing around on two wheels are over (if I am honest with myself) but maybe I can get around on three wheels instead. Over at Gizmag they have an article on a new car/motorcycle that looks cool. Because of its size it is classed as a motorcycle and I would like to go for a

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McAfee released a virus definition file recently (Defintion file 4715) that went on a rampage of users systems and started deleting files that it flagged as a windows virus that first was discovered in 2004. The only problem was that the files that it flagged in fact were not infected with a virus. Programs affected included Excel, Flash and even some Google files, maybe McAfee was upset with

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Over at TechEBlog they have an article about a "robotic" snake, it is actually remote controlled so dont know if it is a true robot, although once the mobility package is there autonamy can come later I guess. What makes this snake diffrent from thje previous ones that I have seen is that not only can it do the usual things expected from a robot snake this one, like its real counterparts can

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The street lights around drouin and longwarry need serious work, I was at a major intersection the other night and out of 12 street lights 6 were not working, This in an intersection where cars are travelling at 100kmh and on a dark night they may not see cars that are side on to them and Tbone them. I will have to ring the power company and report them.

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I was watching the television show sunrise the other morning and they had a segment on promoting australia overseas, In the clip it showed G. Bush playing cricket and in the segment he was refered to as "The president of the free world" now dont get me wrong, I know that the US is a free nation and that its a big and powerful free nation but that DOES NOT make him the president of the free world,

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This work is released under the Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-ShareAlike 2.1 Australia License. To comply with this license you must attribute this work in the following way.1. For web based content a hyperlink pointing to http://www.twistedsouls.com2. For printed media the text www.twistedsouls.com must be displayed either at the end of the document or on the page that features the

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I was sitting around this lovely Sunday afternoon not doing anything really constructive, really procrastinating would be a better description. I really have a lot to do not least of which is fix up DIvergence as I went through a stage for a couple of weeks where I was of my tree a lot and was just pasting press releases instead of actually typing something, which is really lame and is going to

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The other day I wrote this in my Diary as I wasnt ready to blog it, well now I am.."I feel so lost and afraid right now, I was reading some stuff online about borderline and I suddenly just felt so lost, so scared like a little kid. The fear is so bad it hurts. I am so scared of hurting Joanne and the boys, of making them scared and afraid of me like all the other people in my life that I have

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I posted a few weeks ago about my laptop that I brought on Ebay.au and how great it was, well it was until stupid me didn't get all my ad aware, spybot and antivirus stuff running straight away and when I did (read a week or so) my OS was hosed. Now all of those Linux folk out there are going to tell me how great GNU\Linux is and it is when it works.I looked at a heap of different Linux builds

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Okay I have had it with spyware and adware and puups and popunders, so I am installing linux on my laptop, I am playing with knoppix at the moment and am doing a harddrive install as we speak.

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He sit's... quite, thinking, alone.The darkness is inside.Thinking of dark times,Fear of terror he cant hide.Sitting, thinking, alone in his mind.The front he maintains, a thinline.An image he projects,Trying to make it fine.Things that mean the most.Lost in moments slipped away.Hidden in that dark place,His life it starts to fray.Pain never felt so good,To escape, to ignore.That dark terror.

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This idea loks really cool, it is a concept for a US$100 laptop and is aimed at kids, including developing nations, it can even be "wound up" to charge the battery.From the siteWhat is the $100 Laptop, really?The proposed $100 machine will be a Linux-based, with a dual-mode display—both a full-color, transmissive DVD mode, and a second display option that is black and white reflective and

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I have decided to do my book as short stories and prose as that will be easier for me as I have problems getting thoughts in to order, so structuring a complete book in chronological order isn't going to happen. So short stories it is along with my life in prose, and to keep you entertained I am going to blog them as I write, so if you are a regular reader you will get to see them before I get

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Not much thas been happening latelt, I have ben having small seizures while I am sleeping (from adjusting neds) and am waking up feeling worse then when I went to bed. Bloss is menat to be going to a school thingy this evening but has fallen asleep on the couch, I dont know if I shoukld wake her or not, as she hasnt been sleeping to well lately.

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I was thinking about these implants and it came to my attention that maybe the borg are actually our very future selves being run by google technology. Resistance is futile, you will googlelated.

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The other day google approached Bloss and I to discuss the use of modern technology in communication, it was during this conversation that we were asked to be part, of an alpha test of a future google store product called googllant short for google implant and should be ready for launch via the google store in April of 2010.So we decided to get them once available based on our frequent bouts of

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Last night I had one of the worst nights that I have had for quite some time, I was reading some stuff that had been posted on a canadian website about BPD from other people with BPD. All of a sudden I just felt scared and frightened, like a little kid. Not just fearful but really really scared. Then I went through a heap of emotional swings that really wrecked me.After the fear I started to

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Last Sunday night I brought a bottle of Monte Alban Mezacl to celebrate Blossy's Birthday. It was her first venture in to Mexican spirits but she did well consuming to shots of 40% mezcal in about 4 minutes, it made her feel all nice and warm...

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Been hard at work today, working on some new poetry. Well hard means thinking a lot, thinking of words and feelings, thinking of those times in my life that make me feel emotional and then expressing them. As for my current projects, blogging aside, I am working on 3 poems and am also working on an autobiography with a working title named after this blog. Stay tuned same bat channel...

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As the day slips slowly by,I feel colder now.The sun is low, days end,I sit and wonder how.Warm tears flow upon my cheek,The darkness closes in.My body feels oh so weak,Is love a mortal sin ?My heart beats slower still,The pillow wet with pain.For I have lost the will,Wonder if my lifes in vain.Life is short, The moment long,The feelings hurt me so.Love is hard, is it wrong ?I know not where to

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Im sitting on the lounge with my laptop, it is 0130 and I am hot, the sweat is running off me yet today wasnt really a hot day, dont feel like sleeping, again . Oh well thats life.

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I recently brought a laptop on ebay instead of a PDA. I wanted something I could take with me and that could meet my demands which were not really that high and I like a big screen and real keyboard, for quick stuff I use my NGage smart phone.I want it to take to hospital and stuff so I can have music, movies, my diary (this blog and a private one) and just every the things I needed to cope in

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I saw this video and in the first 30 seconds I thought "I would sell an organ for one of these, maybe even one testicle." Then as I watched some more I thought "WOW Minority Report," actually I didnt think I was vocal by then, and then as I saw how this is going to change the world of computing as we know it I died and went to geek heaven. If you like computers and use them in anyway at all then

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I've been thinking a lot lately and not so much about the current state of affairs, although some of the things I have done as a result of those thoughts have changed the way I think of things today.I thought of some time I spent as a teenager with my Grandfather (Opa as he is dutch). When I was about 13 Opa built my brother and I bikes for christmas. They where 10 speed racers and he stripped

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As I was walking through the narrow gap behind the chair Brodie was sitting on he stood up and ran in to me, not on purpose but it caused my back to pop out at L4 (I had a motorcycle accident 12 years or so ago and injured it pretty bad) . It popped back in but has streched muscles and ligaments so i am in pain at the moment so not much blogging tonight Im afraid.

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So where do you rate on the most important of test's ? The Nerd/Geek Test !

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I was asked by my psych the other day as to why my relationship (read friendship) with Bloss had survived for so long when other friendships and romantic relationships have failed, at the time I didnt really have an answer to that question. Well after some serious thought on the subject I have come up with the following.We both don't like to talk much about our problems and bottle them up

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Life the universe and everything.. Some say the answer is 42, that all mighty powerful number, I think it is music, it makes us feel happy, sad, lonely, in love and just about any other emotion you can poke a pointy stick at. Im listening to R&B and Blues at the moment and ir helps to make me feel better knowing that there are others out there with pain in their hearts and souls.Music is such a

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Bang your head to some music instead...I couldn't sleep the other night, well actually I have been having problems sleeping a lot lately. I hate taking meds at the best of times so I try to avoid the ones that I don't need to function like pain killers and sleeping tablets if I can. So on that premise I went looking for some other ways to fall asleep. I came across using white noise to fall

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Went and saw the Psych doc at the hospital yesterday afternoon and he was really goog, I ended up taking my laptop with me and he did take the time to read my blog. He said that it was obvious that I wasnt stupid and that keeping this blog was a good idea and that I should use it as a tool in my ongoing mission to get through BPD.He also told me that the drug Olanzapine is good for the control of

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Man I feel like shit, depressed a bit, still got that empty hollow feeling I was talking about. Earlier I was suffering what I refer to as sensory overload, I get to the point sometimes where I feel like everything is building up, things touching me feel painful especially movement, I become intolerant of noise and light. So I went and hid in my room layed naked in my bed with the curtains closed

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Relationships, I suck at them I have ruined every good thing I have had as far as loving relationships go, I have torn down the people that I was supposed to love, to look after and support.In my last relationship I had everything handed to me on a platter, all I had to do was take my meds, go to counseling and I fucked it up, I alienated my partner and made her not only hate me but fear me, To

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A change is as good as a holiday. Well for most people it is but at the end of my day I think I have realized that a change isn't that good.Routine, Routine, Routine... Almost as good as Location, Location, Location.. "So Sir, Would you like to buy this lovely outdoor deck located on the Sydney harbour bridge ? The view is great.." Well when it comes to borderline it is, that's routine, not

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Taking pills, and I dont mean anything brought from a sleazy looking man wearing cargo pants and a beanie at some late/all night rave with kids dying from speed induced dehydration pills, i mean men in white coats and PHds on the walls and dusty books on the shelves with pictures of their kids on the desk next to the prescription pad pills.Well I have a real problem taking them, not because I

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It really pisses me off the number of people that appear to have recieved a drivers licence from a cereal box, today I was going along a road with a speed limit of 1oo kilometers an hour about 60 miles an hour and I was taking it easy and just crusing along at 80 clicks. It was an open dual lane road with ample space to overtake so I wasnt holding anyone up.Amazinly the number of people that

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I cant sleep so im laying in bed on the laptop, its 0256 or it least I think it is as I removed all signs of conventional clocks in my room and on my laptop and have immersed myself with binary digital clocks (wikipedia) nothing like learning something by immersion.. the binary wrist watch (thinkgeek) is next.Anyway enough of my mindless ravings I found this cool site to kill a bit of time

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Okay I am a bit of a "Geek" and as I told my nephew yesterday "Its cool to be a Geek these days" as he gives me that yeah right look, and it is so I am proud to be one, well the other thing that really got my attention yesterday is the blog WWdn:in exile.It is the blog of Wil Wheaton (wikipedia) who played Wesley Crusher in Startrek, and it is really friggin good, like blew me away good. I was so

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Where to start, I guess with a warning.. (cue dark seedy music)Borderline by its very definition (Wikipedia) makes me go through all sorts of weird thoughts and moods which often results in me splitting or seeing the world in black and white.For example say I had just spent the last 3 weeks working my ass of to meet a deadline at work and finally managed to pull it off, most people at the office

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